Hey Friends! You know, back in September I decided I wanted Q4 of 2019 to feature more posts of me talking with you and just hanging out here at Honey & Pine. SEO and shareable content is awesome and so vital to the success and growth of a blog, but it’s easy to fall into the trap of being obsessed with it so much you lose sight of the friends you make through blogging. It stops being a friendly community and starts becoming nothing SEO-fodder to feed Google. I wanted to bring the community back in Q4 and spend more posts, at least a couple a month, just talking about life and all the little things.

Thanksgiving is next week so I’ve been spending a lot of time focusing on gratitude and thankfulness. I recently starting using the S.O.A.P Bible study from Horacio Printing which has a season on gratitude. 

I have the tendency to fall into routine easily and that often leads me to unintentionally start taking things for granted. I get used to things like Brandon doing laundry while I cook dinner. He always puts the laundry away once it’s dry so I start assuming my clean clothes will always be in my closet. It’s those little things that I stop noticing. I do it at work, with my family, with my friends and I know it’s important for me to stay aware of the kindnesses of others and stay thankful for what they do for me. I’m also working to be more aware of the little blessings that show up in the oddest ways so I can stay in a place of joy and gratitude rather than selfishness. It’s hard for me but I am glad I can admit to those negative aspects of myself. It helps me acknowledge room for growth and commit to constant improvement.

 I’ve also been spending more time investing in myself and the things that I enjoy. I let work and my blog consume so much of my time this year that I feel like I was starting to lose sight of the real-life things I love like Sundays at the park, long walks with my dogs, discovering new coffee shops, curling up with a good (paper) book, cooking, reading other blogs, etc. At the beginning of 2018 I started learning how to knit. I put it down in April to write a blog post and work on a few things around the house; I never picked it back up again. 

I’m trying to go screen-free after work at least 3x a week which has been hard since as a blogger you’re kind of expected to always be around. I’ve noticed it doesn’t really matter and the world isn’t going to end if I don’t reply to an email or comment until the next morning. 

A few things I’m really loving right now are:

  • This planner from Horacio Printing. It’s the greatest planner I’ve ever had and probably the only one I’ll use for the rest of my life, ever. 
  • This Confidence in a Cream moisturizer from It Cosmetics. My friend Christine recommended this moisturizer to me at the beginning of the year and it’s amazing! I use it every single day and my skin has never felt so good.
  • My blogging friend, The Book Wheel, is back on her blog and I couldn’t be more excited. We’ve been online friends since like 2012 and still haven’t met in person but that’s going to change…eventually. She won a local election and hasn’t been blogging as much but she’s back and I’m excited to see her around again.
  • This macaroni and cheese recipe from my blogging friend, Simply Stine. It sounds simple and delicious and I am certain I’m going to be eating way too much of it this winter.

I’m looking forward to 2019 and I’m working on setting new dreams and goals for this blog and my life in general. One thing I’m really focused on in 2019 is learning to accept infertility and let go. I can see how some people could call it giving up, and maybe it is in a way, but I feel like it’s time. Neither Brandon nor I believe we should use IVF or other means to get pregnant. We’ve discussed it many times but we both feel firmly that it’s not the right choice for us. We haven’t lost hope and we’d still love a child together but it can no longer be a focus in our lives. If it will be, it will be but if not then we need to accept it and move forward with our lives.

I feel like I was allowing our infertility to define me and I can’t allow that to continue in 2019. I need to find a way to embrace the life I do have rather than feel sad or regret over the life I wish I had. 

I want 2019 to be a year I spend embracing the good in my life and learning to truly love myself. I’m looking forward to using Honey & Pine Co to share good stuff, happy stuff, again like the trips we take with our dogs, the delicious recipes I cook up in the kitchen, the books I’ve loved, and more. Of course, if I’m going to share those things with you I have to get out of this depressive funk and actually do those things again. I’m going to use connecting with you guys again as my motivation for doing the things that make me happy so I can get things back on track. 

2018 was rough but I’m ready to enjoy these holidays and embrace 2019 with loads of optimism and hope for the new days ahead.